Worse News

Mood: Bleh
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Watching: Rashomon

My mare has foundered. I finally was able to get a 'real' vet out here to look at her. The first vet didnt do a damn thing. She looked at her swollen leg and said she had cellulitis. Well, she doesnt. A different vet came to see her last week. Same office, but different vet. He took one look at her and said 'Yup, shes foundered". FUCK!!

During his first visit he sedated her so he could trim her worst foot. The one that had the abscess. She struggled and was a brat. I never saw anyone sweat so much or get so red! Poor vet worked really hard. He was here for a couple hours just working on that one foot. Till almost 9pm. I even got a lesson in how to give injections. ACK!! Ive never ever given a shot before, but Ive given a few now, lol. Loki was awesome about getting them. I didnt even have to tie her up, she just stood there for me. EVery 6 hours I had to go out and give her a shot of this yellow dialating stuff. I forget what it was called. I shook every time. The vet said that if I got it in her blood stream it could kill her so I was especially scared I was going to mess up. But I didnt

The vet came back again to trim her other feet. It was a terrible time for all of us, though for Loki and the vet the most. He was tired he said because hed been up for like 23 hours with 2 horses in the clinic. THen the first thing he does when he picks up Lokis hoof up to start trimming, is cut his thumb. I didnt get a look at it, but it was bad. He ran to his truck and put some tape on it and came back and kept working! He said it was down to the bone and I dont doubt it. It bled like a fucker. Loki still has bloody thumb prints on ehr side and bloody pasterns! He even splatted blood on my pants! lol Never had anyone bleed on me before. I should have asked him if he was going to charge me extra for the paint job

So the vet was tired and injured and well, he got mad at us and Loki. Even yelled at us for not holding her head right. I know he was trying hard and Loki is a jerk with her feet, but dang. He went to his truck to get more TQ and I cried. Bleh! He tried to do her back feet but shed only let him do one. Shes funny about her right hind leg. Im working with her but its going to take ages to get her ok with it. I dont know why shes bad with that one. Been a year or so since she started that. Oh, it was also friggin hot and raining really hard so theres that to make us all unhappy, too.

When the trimming was done, I tied Loki up so she coudlnt eat anythign till she was awake more, and followed the vet back to his truck. I offered tos tand outside, I had a coat on and didnt mind the rain, but he said "Get in and Ill turn the AC on". So I did and he worked up how much to charge, checked his messages and filled up more syringes for Loki. He oppologized for getting so cranky and repeatedly told me how good I was doing with Loki and that I did a good job helping. I guess alot of people dont help when vets show up. I cant even imagine doing that. Its your pet!! Anyway, I thanked him and he thanked me and I said "take care of that thumb!", "Yea, Im gettin a tetanus shot! lol"

SO the two visits from him is cositng me $362 bucks. Ouch... Well, my grandfather is paying it and I pay him back. Itll take me a few months, but ung! I wish I had lots of money. How does the government expect anyone to live on $425 a month?? If I had more money, I would gladly pay anything to help my horse. Anything. He worked hard to get her feet looking good (though there was alot of yelling and jabbing with carious tools to get her to stand up) and her feet look awesome now. All but one anyway. He earned what ever part of that 362 is his, but thats almost as much as I get in one month!!

And now Im obsessing about Loki. A mare my step father bought about 10 years ago foundered and eventually got so bad, she broke her leg and Bruce shot her. I loved that lady. I wish I had lived here then and done more. I didnt know anythign then. But I do now and Loki isnt going to die. Im not giving up on her. If she needs me to be out there 24/7 I will be. I wish it was my feet instead. If she needs every cent I have, shell get it. Shes in alot of pain and now she cant graze or have grain. She may never be able to have those things and it kills me. She searches my pockets for treats and shes still looking for her supper every night. Its sucks so bad. I love her and want her to he healthy. But I want her to be happy too. I though that I would splurge next month if I can and get us a clicker training book. So many people use it I thought it might be fun to teach her stuff while shes layed up. We could play that way. Give us both something to do.

uhg.....